When I started my current job in mid-November I told my families that I won't be able to do any home visits during the month of March due to my surgery, but now that we've had time to get to know each other and get used to seeing each other every week, it's hard to imagine not seeing them for 5 weeks. I work with kids under age 3 and they grow so fast, I feel like I'm going to be missing out on so much. My previous job was just a desk job as a program assistant for the same agency, but back then I would have loved to have that much time off.
Even just writing this post and thinking about all the unknown that comes with this surgery is getting to me and I'm not an emotional person....well I don't like to be anyways. Today I had this urge to just run away and not think about it. With my surgery being so close it's all I think about and I need a break from it. Whenever I'm stressed I find myself driving around. I went to a couple stores trying to find a freakin' squeeze bottle to help me drink water and slippers for my surgery and finally I found them. I took more then a few stores, but I found some.
After all that shopping I ended up at the beach. I live in a very rural area of Northern California where we have many, many redwood trees, plenty of beaches and rivers. Nature calms me. It was a windy day at the beach. It was exactly what I needed. The roads are windy that are fun to drive and it was actually sunny. This week is going to fly by and I leave Saturday morning to head to Washington and won't be coming home until Thursday. Not being home during the first part of my recovery will be an interesting twist, I hope I can do it.
Well, until next time. Below are some pictures from today.
I feel the exact same way, like surgery is all I think about and Saturday I did exactly what you did. I went to the beach and took lots of photos and enjoyed nature. Best of luck next Monday. I will be thinking of you! :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear I'm not alone!! I just look at your blog too and love your pictures. Thank you. I will be watching your recovery process as well when the time comes.
DeleteGood luck with your surgery, as someone who's been through it I can honestly say you don't need to worry about it so much... the recovery was so much easier than I thought it would be, and I kind of thought 'All that worrying for this?' I know you're bound to be a little nervous, but try to focus on the positives. I can honestly say that it's one of the best things I've ever done, and you've got so much to look forward to, so try to be excited as well as nervous!
ReplyDeleteThanks Sarah! Today was a better day, work distracted me a bit. I can't wait until I'm fully recovered and brace free, but I'll settle for knowing that I'll be able to bit into a hamburger or sandwich and not have anything fall out. Lol.
DeleteIm almost in week 2of my recovery dont worry. As for me as it got closer I too felt as if I wasn't prepared enough but you are going to be great
ReplyDeleteThe beach pictures look nice
You are looking great! They say that the first week is the hardest, is that true? Thanks Kristie.
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ReplyDeleteI hope your nerves are holding out ok. I have no advice (as I haven't had my surgery yet)but hang in there, good luck & I look forward to following your post surgery progress.
Cheers - Ellie
My nerves are better today, thank you. I had a good day at work and that helped. Thanks Ellie.
DeleteYou are almost at the deep end, all that's left to do is jump! You can do it. Don't think too much about what you need, just focus on being strong and most importantly staying positive. You will do great. Erin
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